I don't want :(

Today I was being pushed to the wall. Like again. Sometimes, I really don't understand why do I really like to make my life so difficult. A, B, C paths, but I will rather take the hardest path D to reach my goal. Sounds like I know what I want. But before getting it, I need to be screwed everytime. Life's isn't that easy. Even at home today. Having alittle friction with aunt. Small matter but I felt so guilty. Argument was from A-->B-->C then blame to D. I hate all these. If I have know it will happen, I will probably choose to nap till morning instead. Dad giving me tonnes of problem. I want a decent life. I want to be extraordinary but not at the neg* side.